Friday 21 March 2014

When it is Truly Time to Say It is Over

I realize I have hinted at this several times, but for reasons I really don't want to explain, this will be my final blog post. In many ways having this outlet has saved me through this past year - giving me a way to express what this path has been like - to express honestly how I came to this place - to make amends as best I could and to express my gratitude to everyone who has reached out to me through all of the ups and downs. Fortunately, months ago I actually wrote a final blog that my sister will post for me at the appropriate time. If I have been graphic at times - perhaps a little too revealing - it is only because when you have lived so many years living in denial - coming clean about my journey has been so very healing to me in ways I can't fully express. I beg you please not to to push privately or publicly how I came to this decision - as it is simply time to end this. My thanks again for the gift of your love and support and your indulgence in following along with me. With love...

21 comments:

  1. Good-bye Michelle. May peace be with you, Kirk and the rest of your family. Love Colleen

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  2. I spent hours yesterday reading your blogs... where did that word come from anyway??? I didn't sleep much last night because I wanted to thank you and hoped I had time. Years ago when I went to your house you would go and listen to your mom and Gary and Mr. and Mrs. Davis and come and tell us what they were talking about... one time you came back and told us that they were saying that I was a really great kid, etc. etc. Well I had never heard that before about myself and knowing that somebody thought I was that wonderful was something that I hold onto almost every day of my life. That little piece of information that you shared with me that day provided a solid foundtion for me to know that I am a worthy person and it felt so good, in fact, it still does.

    Thank you Michelle for all your sharing, you have changed many lives...
    Bye for now... see you when I get there Love, Sandra McCall xoxo

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  3. I give you love and I wish you peace.

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  4. Michelle, thank you for sharing your journey. I am very thankful that I came across your blog when I did. Learning about your story and reading the words you have written so eloquently and candidly has been a blessing in itself. I feel that I have been incredibly fortunate to be able to have a small window into how things are going for you and Kirk throughout this process. You are exiting with dignity and with total grace. I believe, from your incredibly brave disclosure has come total enlightenment. You opened your soul and spirit for love to flow in from all your admirers. ;) Including me! Your loving heart and unrelenting kindness will live on and will never, ever be forgotten. Thank you for this gift Michelle. I will be forever grateful for having the fortune to follow along. Sending you loads and loads of love! Love you!!! xoxo Kim

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  5. Sending my love to you Michelle - may all your travels ahead be filled with light, peace, warmth and tranquility. You are an extraordinary and beautiful woman and I am blessed to have know you. What you have given the world and all of us in these past months is an exceptional gift. You are an open heart that is an example to us all. xo Sue Gee

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  6. Safe passage Michelle! Thanks for sharing so much. There comes a time to let go...on both sides.

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  7. I'm adding to the rest of the voices. Thank you for sharing your journey, you've helped me so much with your honesty and amazing writing. I'm truly grateful. Much love, l.

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  8. Know that every step of the way we are all walking beside you - I hope you can feel the love and embrace the peace. You did good Michelle. So grateful to have shared this time with you... xoxo

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  9. I cant help but write back. Not only have you shown us the end journey of an eating disorder but you have showed us pure bravery. You have helped me profoundly on how my dad must have felt in his five week journey of dying. He would tell us things like you do....that he is ok...he is not scared...and that he loved us so much. I found myself glued to your blog and re-reading many of your posts which has helped me heal from my loss. I write my last note to you with tears in my eyes to let you know you are so beautiful inside and out and I will always remember our years working together with great fondness. To my very favorite boss forever and always....I love you -- we all love you! Becky.

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  10. Michelle, thanks for sharing so honestly and beautifully. Not always easy to read, but writing from the heart is like that.

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  11. Thanks Michelle, you've been (and will always remain) a tremendous inspiration to me as I go through my trivial trials - and as you once said, a kindred spirit. If I'm more patient today, more determined, stronger - a lot of that is down to contemplating and learning from you sharing your journey. Much love to you. Jon C

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  12. Thanks for doing the blog Michelle. Your "voice" in the written word is truly amazing and while your blog was a remedial exercise for you, it was very much inspiring and enlightening for those who were fortunate enough to write it. You're a beautiful and amazing person and all those that have been fortunate enough to know you are better people for the experience. You and Kirk are both amazing. Much love from the Zerr family

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  13. Michelle, from our family to yours, thank you for your words and the honesty and reflection that has come from them. You are loved, you will be missed.

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  14. Michelle, I know you don't want us to think of you as brave but girl, you are the bravest woman I know. It's not easy to be totally honest and pour your thoughts and emotions into words for all to see and for that I can only think of you as brave. You are an inspiration to me, one like no other I have known. You are so loved by so many and you are so deserving of it all. xoxox

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  15. Thank you Michelle, for sharing all your beautifully expressed wisdom, insights and reflections. You've broken so many barriers and taught so many so much. You didn't set out to leave a legacy. But you most certainly have. And I, for one, will try to ensure it is used to help others. Wishing you peace and strength in the next chapter.

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  16. Michelle,
    Thank you for the honesty, strength and grace you've displayed in sharing this incredibly difficult time for you. Bev and I have been so moved and saddened by all of this and at the same time glad that you've had the love and support of Kirk and your family 24/7. Your writing gift is clearly that a gift, the way your stories flow with such emotion, style and humour is nothing short of incredible. We always thought you had a terrific sense of humour but I don't think we realized just what a gifted writer your are.
    We also love how you made an effort to thank the nurses and care givers that have been with you all this time, we truly believe we have the best health care professionals anywhere here in Victoria and we all need to let them know that.
    You are a true inspiration Michele thank you.
    Ed & Bev Bain

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  17. So thankful to have worked with you and shared your spirit. Hopefully we'll meet again on the other side. Much love - Jen Morgan

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  18. May goodness and mercy follow you, all the days of your life and beyond.
    TG

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  19. ASB and I send our love from Ottawa. Your blog has been profound and if you consent could we please share some pieces with the nurses of Canada? Will connect with you by post. Your light will perpetually shine through all you touched, never to be forgotten. We are both so honored to know you! xoxo Di Clements

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  20. To all who have taken the time to write, I am moved beyond words by your kindness and thoughtful comments. As I said this has been a painful process and it has helped immensely to have you share your love and support. Again..my eternal gratitude...xo

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  21. Michelle, with love respect and admiration - I will you peace. You will be remembered fondly, you have taught us much.
    Nikki Sieben

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