Thursday, 9 January 2014
The Trouble With Pronouncements
So just when I stop droning on about my self-sufficiency - my body decides it is going to stop cooperating. Being abundantly honest - I am in tremendous pain today. Several of the signs that the symptoms of my kidney failure are getting worse are coming home to roost...the day before we are moving to a new home. I am finding some of the medications that helped me get through a renewed burst of activity prior to the holidays are starting to lose steam...meaning bigger doses over shorter periods...and now to add to the indignity, are signs that the toxins that are no longer being filtered out, are painfully depositing in my joints - meaning I am barely able to walk. Of course I managed to pack two boxes before seven am before I came to my senses and retired to the couch. I managed to speak to my lovely family doctor who will check in with the specialist to determine what if anything can be done. It is discouraging as there is so much I wanted to accomplish today and I want to rail at my body for the bad timing. Fortunately I have plenty of helping hands and have to try very hard to allow them to do what needs to be done without jumping up to intervene...one of my lesser skills! So today while again counting my blessings I will let my body be what it is and hope this pain is short-lived.
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Hi Michelle,
ReplyDeleteI find your writings incredibly moving -- and I say incredible because I am not easily moved. I see that there are not many comments. I wonder if, as I am, your readers are inhibited by your candor -- and grace -- in writing about your life. Thank you for not being silent.
Thank you for your generous words and kindness. I don't really know the answer to your question with respect to the comments. I do know that many people who know me have responded by sending direct messages and prefer to comment in a more private way. In any event I am greatly touched by your words.
DeleteHey there my dear friend I thought you might appreciate you are not alone with the timing factor. When I was diagnosed the first time I had just booked a trip to the Dominican for that December, a month later. Then when I was diagnosed the second time in May 2011, we had a family reunion booked for July, and a family vacation to Hawaii that Fall. Phooey. But I agree, you have to see the positives, I found what amazing people I had in my life and learned, well still learning to take life as it comes.
ReplyDeleteIndeed my lovely...we are all a work in progress!
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